∙g r a t i t u d e ∙ + ∙ f r u i t i o n ∙
Reaching the end of a calendrical year often feels like taking your first breath of fresh air after having climbed to the highest mountain peak. There is relief, gratitude for the trials and adversity, and a deep feeling of fulfillment surging through every nerve of your body. You cast a smile to the heavens, which are not far from where you stand now, and you cast a smile below to the rocky terrain you’ve only now been able to navigate. Heaven and hell both have special places in your heart, now that you have expanded your perspective and allowed yourself to see the expansiveness of everything this reality has to offer. You feel free to enjoy the fruits of your labor -- play in the snowy peaks, amuse yourself with the clouds of your own breath, celebrate your milestones -- though you know the journey is not nearly complete. It is here that we arrive at the crossroads between accepting and manifesting, an illuminated theme for the week of December 11th to the 18th.
All our accumulated energy is coming to fruition. This isn’t attributed solely to the fact that the Gregorian calendar is about to start from its “beginning” again, but rather because the cycles of introspection, transformation and insight are guiding us gently into a period of serious internal work. We are now experiencing the consequences and effects of our thoughts, words, and actions. Our energies are meeting their manifestations in what may initially be perceived as chaos and disruption. With Mercury in Retrograde until the 22nd, our perception of time is further distorted as parts of us feel pulled into past cycles and situations, while other parts of us may feel we’ve outgrown old structures and seek to move forward. In this seemingly disharmonic convergence of new and old, we must remember that this is one of the many tests of growth. By surrendering to the law of cause and effect, ultimately karma, we are able to take responsibility for our past actions by choosing to let our experiences inform our next move. Surrendering does not rule out our free will, rather in encourages us to dismantle patterns of resistance in our behavior and internal dialogue. Honor the process of growth and transformation by embracing the perceived roadblocks and remind yourself that you can gently remove yourself from what does not serve you. Accept what comes your way as part of the universal order and embrace the necessity of all things. You’ve always been in power as the primary creator and manifestor in your life. This week, may you remember this power and choose to harness it again in ways that are empowering and beneficial to your growth.
In this mode of surrender, we may find that blessings fall frequently into our laps. In truth, we are always in a state of abundance and blessings, though we are not always privy to the subtle ways that they sneak into our lives. All endings are blessings, Mercury Retrograde reminds us. The chaotic glitches from technology acting up to the severe consequences of miscommunication yield new understandings and equip us with tools for enhancing our relationships, should we choose to flow with the transitions as opposed to barricade ourselves against them. When we attempt to block consequences, we must understand that we are also blocking our blessings, our life lessons, the experience and wisdom needed to transcend toxic cycles in the future. This week, allow yourself to flow with ease. Spread your arms wide and hold open palms to the sky. Choose to see past initial attachments to survival mode and resistance. Will you rage against the injustice and fail to see the purpose of all cycles, as Demeter initially did, or will you slip into synchronicity with all that is and accept your own autonomy? Much of this surrendering process affirms the power within ourselves, despite the misunderstanding that it is a passive way of giving up. When we surrender to the universe, we are surrendering to the simple truth that we can only manifest for ourselves. We as individuals alone have the power to transform our lives. This week, keep this in mind if you find yourself wishing people would cater to your growth and transformation in specific ways. Instead, ask what you can do the access this ability within yourself.